yep -- it's caleb and graceee again, with a different layout. this isn't a blog for nasty posts about other people, so dont worry. just a space for us to leave thoughts, and express what we're feeling through the power of words. xo

I feel like I'm losing friends. Maybe some of them just weren't friends to begin with. Maybe I haven't been a friend either. I don't know, and I guess the reason for that is lack of communication.

I've tried being honest, nice, straightforward with people. I slip alot and I make mistakes, and I guess a shallow person could take one of my mistakes as a picture of what I really am like. That isn't my fault, and neither should I really worry about what others think of me. But, however, keeping a clean record and making myself a good testimony isn't something I can just "whatever", or "let them think what they want" to. For me, it just doesnt' work like that. If someone has a problem with me, because of something they've seen in me, then honest confrontation seems like a must. How else would ANYONE be able to improve if everyone just says "Oh, if she wants to be like that, let her be. I don't care." That isn't what the Bible says to do, even though not getting involved seems like the right thing to do alot of the time. It is, when it is really none of your business. But then, if that someone causing the scene is one of your friends, then it kind of is your business. You'd want your friend, if that person really is your friend that is, to be in the right, wouldn't you? I think it's good practice to tell the person what you honestly think is the right thing to do. If that person brushes you off and gets mad at you for "judging" him or her, then really, you've done all that you can. After that, "not getting involved" would be more ideal, I'd say.

I'm done with being touchy about what others say about me out of hate, and everyone who reads this should read this earnestly. We can't all be growing up like silly little children, selfish and immature. If we're to grow up at all, this would be one important area for us to improve on. Talking about people behind their backs, getting upset over little miscellaneous things, taking what others say to another level and twisting their words around, having fickled minds, taking "revenge" on others- really, if you think about it, these things are what children do.

A child goes up to his best friend and says, "Billy stole my yoyo. We're not going to be friends with him now, you hear?"
A child's mother refuses to let him get go over to his friend's house, and he gets upset and throws his shoe on the floor.

How often have you heard someone come up to you and say something like, "Oh my gosh, Mary, can you believe Belinda? She totally stole my idea and is wearing the EXACT same hair as mine to school now. I can't believe her. I'm so not sitting by her at lunch today."
Sound familiar? Or...
Your mom doesn't let you go to a party, and you storm out of the kitchen into your room, where you get on your computer and furiously Facebook a note about how horrible your mother is.

We all aren't far from having childlike attitudes, if you ask me. I think a change is desperately needed, and I speak for myself. I've been trying to for a while now, and I pray someone will see changes in me soon.



Grace